The Eve of my Birthday

Heyy guys,

I’ve received some comments and messages about things they’ve missed so I’ll gladly answer them now. I’ve been really good, stressful as school is actually talking over my life. I don’t really see much of my friends anymore. If any of you decided to take nursing in your future it hard be ready to study.

The person I hang out with the most now is Jake. Jake is a guy I met at school and he is exactly like me but in guy form. He is outgoing, an alchy, funny as crap and a very honest guy that’s real.

I see Lucky every once in a while, we’re going to Jamaica on Christmas break so that should be very exciting. I talk to my wolf now and then. Someone asked me a question about being friends with your ex and I will write a different blog about that. I think it needs its own.

Leah I don’t talk to anymore that’s over. She couldn’t handle the truth I told her about her life and decided not to talk to me anymore so I gave up on her. It wasn’t worth it to fight. I did everything for her. I let her live with me, fed her and even stayed her friend when she replaced me but I’ve moved on and I’m not longer at that stand still. Will we go back to being like sister…NEVER. Will we go back to being friends maybe.

On an exciting note, I’m turning 19 tomorrow!! HURRAY. At 12 I might go out with my cousin and get my first real drink in public. Isn’t it great!

Type for always,

Kamla<3

Hello College Life

Heyy Guys,

I realised that I haven’t written anything in a while and I don’t really know where to start, so I’m going to ask you guys for some help here. If there is anything that you guys are wondering about my life now, feel free to ask. I am now in college and finally starting my life so if you feel like asking/stating or if you need advice, the kamla box is now open. I promise to post at least once a week. But that’s the min. I hope you lovelys are still around to read my blog.

Type for always,

Kamla<3

A summary update

My wolf and I are no longer together. We haven’t been for a while now…He changed and I was afraid of change for him. I assume he’s happy but I don’t really know. I haven’t talked to him since the break up. Being single is okay just gets pretty lonely at times which sucks..
But what I’ve learned from all of this is…
Some times when you try to do something right it always goes wrong. But what do you do when everything you do is wrong? In the end you have upset someone, hurt yourself and even made others pity you. Life is like one big wave, it’s fine and dandy until the tsunami hits the shore.

Life Hurts

I do everything with a smile on my face. Move on from friends who don’t need me anymore with a smile, move on from the greatest thing that’s happen to me with a smile and even moved on from death with a smile. But, what do I do when my smile doesn’t actually change my reality? Life hurts…

Colour Change of the New Year

As I move though these doors,
I leave myself behind.
I leave that part of me with you,
The part that wants to love you.
You could always see,
What you do to me.
But, I could feel lonely,
Without you loving me faithfully.
Hurting from the pain of loss,
Will feel better than staying with the pain of fear.
Some times loss is better than love,
Love is nothing but a word

Type for always,

Kamla<3

New Years Resolution

Heyy Guys,

I have thought very hard about what my new years resolution would be and I have come to the conclusion that it should be something I always let slip by.
In the past my resolutions have been, don’t drink this year, lose some weight this year, never talk to Dennis again. And as funny as those all sound I’ve actually stuck by them. I know I’m weird lol.
But my resolution this year is 3 things that I consider to be one. Only be nice to people who deserve it, don’t let anyone walk over me especially men and don’t give in to people who will never give up for you.
Now that you guys know mine I want to heart yours. What is your New years resolution and what do you think of mine?

Type for always,

Kamla<3

Found my way back to reality

Heyy Guys,

The past few days I’ve only been thinking positive bout my life but of course there is always something, or in my case someone, who will bring you back to reality. And I’m not saying reality is a negative aspect of life but it definitely had its ups and downs but being stuck in a world so close to fantasy and reality seemed like a great place to be.
I don’t know if you guys remember me talking about my guy best friend (Sam) and his girlfriend (Bianca) but they’re one couple that are two nice people on their own but not so great together. Sam loves her to death and I think she does love him too but something about her makes me uneasy, especially since he is my best-friend and I know things about her that he doesn’t, not very flattering things at that.
On my birthday Bianca and Sam and gotten into a fight and she was at his house on his residence at university. He was skyping with me to wish me a happy birthday and to show me his new tattoo and Bianca hits his back when he just had his tattoo done. I’ve never seen him cry instantly before, he bolted out of the room. As he left, Lucky and Bianca and I just had a skype convo as Lucky was at his place too, it was exam week during this so they all studied together. I finally realised that I shouldn’t be talking to these two I should be talking to my best friend especially now.
Bianca brought him back into the where he acted quite rude to her and locked the door to his room leaving the other two outside and the room for just us to have a normal conversation, well as normal as a computer video call can be. He spilled his life to me and in that time Bianca kept coming into the room just to check up on us, in other words to show her territory to me so I wouldn’t push up on him. i get her being protective over him but really? I’m his best-friend get over it, if we were gonna date we would have already. The last time she walked in she licked his face and he got so pissed. I told him i didn’t want to see that and she replied, “well, you might as well see this as you wont get that from your boyfriend he’s not a great on like mine.” I was speechless and with that she left with a smirk. I looked at Sam who was giving me an apologetic look. At this point I couldn’t handle it and I just got off skype without a goodbye or anything.
This was the worst reality check of my life. Really before that talking to him was great and with him being gone meant us talking a lot more on skype which was awesome cause it beats the phone as I could still see him. But now, I don’t know what to do.
So here is the question of the day, How do you deal with a jealous person when you’re the one making them that way? And how do you stay friends with a guy when his girl friend is so threatened by you?

Type for always,

Kamla<3